Sunday, March 7, 2010 @ 20:20
Its over,ITS REALLY OVER NOW:(
What i dreamt wasn't the same as what happens today.
I'm quite disappointed with you,but i knows if you being with me you will be upset,but i wants you to know something,there's always a reason behind everything i do,but it seems that you don't understand just like you test me,making me jealous.
I cried at the staircase we talk just now,hoping to see you walk back,but you did not so i decided to stop it,n=maybe what you said that I'm changed all this,but who makes me changed is you,do you know that??The more i love you the more i became so.....If its was the past,i had already given up,no matter whose fault it is.but i try to patch back and i once had my love fade,and i still try my best to love you and now i did it,but you didn't even try,you said you will love me again,but how much effort have you put in??Okay,maybe i didn't realised,just hope that everything will goes back as per normal,everything will not be the same if we do it together.
Well,you said it in blog that i didn't put in any effort,that's what's you think of,have you thought of me in the first place??maybe,but to me it don't seems to and you said i didn't trust you or even love you,i had always been loving you and i trust you once and what did i get??
It seems that everything you wrote in blog is my fault have you thought of my feelings,not only just you being stressed up:(i don't understand you??its just that you are truly complicated.you have to be indirectly,but for me i have to get straight to the point alright??:)
But its no use now,but its okay i will wait for the day when we truly be together again and never be apart,you keeps asking me not to wait you,i rather be disappointed than never had any chance before,at least i wait i might have chances and if i don't,i never had that chances and why i wait is because i knows i really loves you even if i don't wait,i knows my heart is still waiting,i can't accept any guys at all only you:)Its true whether you believes or not.I will still kept my promises.You can always comes back to me.